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Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Computer Building, Stress and MS, and Let's Be Nice to Each Other

Made a computer today, it was like Dr. Frankenstein's lab in the basement! I have 5 or 6 old computers I have gathered over the years, some mine, some not. I am loading the Ubuntu operating system, a member of the Linux family. I've always had windows computers, so this should be a hoot and a holler figuring it out. I've been wanting to do this for a long time, since I was planning to take it easy for a while, easy decision. If this one works, and doesn't start a fire, I'm going to make a mega computer to act as a server, I just have to figure out what that means!

Stress is not my friend, and from what I read on other blogs, I'm not the only MS'er that should avoid it. I feel like I'm having an outer body experience today, like I'm not all here. Just to head off the comments, yes, I have been told I wasn't all here before, a few bricks short of a load, a few fries... you get the point. My hands are extremely numb, feel like they are swollen 5X's their normal size. I am having problems with my eyes, first time in a long time. Everything is very bright, somehow hazy at the same time. I'm going to give it another day, if it gets worse I will deal with a probable exacerbation, but not today.

I've been thinking all day how easy it is to be nice to people, but how seldom I see it anymore. The wife and I were talking whilst at sea, the minimal effort involved dealing with in-laws, or parents in general. We are both closing in on 50, her 13 days before me, yippy, so logic says our parents aren't spring chickens anymore, and with that comes some issues we have to adapt to. Memories aren't what they once were, physical abilities wane, decisions need to made in how to handle the changes. We have to decided to listen to the stories again, answer the questions too, not make them feel bad about having done it. For those who choose not to be patient, not be caring, all I can hope is that they have one child that returns the favor down the road.


Libby said...

andy, this is so important, if just one person 'gets it' from this, you'll have given someone a wonderful gift.
oh, & by the daughter brought over the ultrasound picture of their baby today! mind you, she's only about 6 weeks pregnant!!

awb said...

Hey Libby - Thanks, I hope a bunch of people get it! 6 weeks, I didn't know they did it that early.


Living Day to Day with Multiple Sclerosis said...

So true!!!

I hope this was just a 1 day episode and that you are not heading into an exacerbation. I hope you are feeling much better today!!

Cranky said...

Andy - I'm impressed you're building a computer from a bunch of spare parts. Good luck!

Hope it proves out to be post-trip fatigue and not the start of something worse.

awb said...

Tara - Me too, I've decided I'm not interested in this MS thing, I wish to not participate! I'll let ya know how that worked.

Cranky - It works too! I loaded a linux system onto it, the go fast module may be slow due to age, I just need to figure out which one that is, and what it's called.

I'm fine, just got worked up, I'm still a little boy trying to figure out why the world isn't fair and nice. This too shall pass.


Miss Jackie's FAVORites said...

KLEENEX!!! As you know - I hate this growing older "thing". Don't want it! Don't need it! I don't care about getting older myself (especially because I'm reminded all the time about being 13 days older than you! AH!), I just wish we could freeze our parents. Repeating something or reminding them of something is such a little thing to do. I know we will always give them the respect that they so deserve. I'm so glad we are a "team".

awb said...

Jack - Don't make me sing my song! Don't do it! "Is you is, or is you ain't my baby?" There, you did it now.

We owe them a lot more than that, and oh what a team!