I usually have a general feeling of disconnect, meaning I usually feel dizzy, unsteady and out of sorts, but then I have bad days! Today is one of those bad days. I feel today like I could pass out at any moment. On days like today I have the old "barber chair syndrome" like I did when this pony ride started, except I think it could make me pass out now. Think of getting your hair cut and putting your chin down to your chest, that's what I mean. Like I said the other day, I always feel bad the first few weeks of starting anything new, I just always hope that it's a sign of good things to come.
Along with that I also have no energy, and I don't mean low, I mean no! I have been ready for bed all day. I would have slept all day, but my shots were delivered first thing this morning and woke me up. Isn't that a kick in the ass? So do I feel like this today because of my uber amount of vitamin D I took last night? Am I supposed to feel bad from the D? If so, will I feel bad each time? Does everyone else who takes D feel bad too, or is it just me? Why do my hands feel so bad? Ever stick your finger in a lamp without a bulb? If you haven't, go do it now so you know what I'm talking about. That's what my hands feel like, but swollen, if that makes any sense?
People always tell me at least I can take it easy when I feel this way. I haven't killed any of them because I know they mean well. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired! Thanks UB, I knew I would work that one in someday. I don't want to take it easy. I want to get rid of this Edsel body and maybe drive a Ferrari for a few weeks. I'm doing Swank, Vitamin D, Rebif, and will be doing LDN and posibbly the water cure. One of these has to work, it's the law of averages, right? Life in the fast lane may not be my bag anymore, that's cool, just let me stay out of the pits and at least cruise the slow lane.