A Bad Case of MS Depression

     I’ve been bitten by the depression bug the last few days, particularly bad today. MS is kicking my ass today! Let’s see, what was it that got to me, hard to isolate just one thing? My pay went up $44 a month, that opens the world at my feet. That massive raise was swallowed up by the landscaping we just had done, next years also. Paid to have the yard work done, that’s always a trigger. It’s not the money, though it is, it’s that I want to do it! I planted 4 flower boxes today, all by myself. Well, the wife brought me the boxes, poured the potting soil in, brought me the flowers, then cleaned up the incredible mess I made. But I did it all by myself! Oh, by the time I was finished my right arm hung down at my side, lifeless and useless. It was about then I had to go to the bathroom. Imagine trying to insert a catheter with one hand. Let’s just say it didn’t go well. Now I’m in bed, worn out and discouraged. Still can’t recline, my rear is irritated, nothing serious, yet. May seem small to you, but my world is crashing in around me today.